Wednesday, March 16, 2016

10:10

It is 10:10pm.

I stepped outside my hotel room to get better signal and I can hear fireworks in the distance.

The eye of orlando is lit up in a beautiful purple light and the clouds around it are reflecting the soft glow.

There is one single star in the sky that I can see...and it may be a satellite.

I have been in a bad mood today.

Anger from grief maybe?

I dont know.

I just know it hit hard this morning and hasn't really left my side.

I am trying my best to stay sane, but maybe today is just not the day for it.

I didn't finish my etsy shop like I wanted to, but I did get one item loaded...and I guess tomorrow I will get at least one more thing on there.

I also want to run an ad in the paper about the patty-cake athon, but I am nervous because it costs lots of money, and people don't always read the paper and I don't want to lose money that can help me open the art therapy room and support center.

And I didn't meet my goal today....which is fine. I know I have already asked so much of people and a lot of people I know are going through their own stuff...so I am not worried too much about that.

Tomorrow I want to find time to print out letters to send to obgyn's and different businesses in the area...maybe that will help too...idk.

I just have to keep trying.


Oh my boogie.
I miss you so much.
I love you I love you I love you.
I need you to shine down on me.
Please.
<3



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