Today was a busy day. I attempted to start with grant writing but have no idea where to start so I submitted a "job" to 2 different freelance sites for help and I've gotten a few responses.
I donated 10 copies of "Hi Little Sunflower" to an angel suite started by another mom and in memory of her beautiful little girl.
I also started working on some ideas for an etsy shop I am starting to help fund the love Elijah Project and our art therapy room.
Oh! And we are at $360 in donations!!!
I think we are headed in the right direction <3
Did I have any complaints today???
Not even going to lie...I did. But again, mostly just over one tired little boy of mine's behavior. I did what I could and by the end of the night he was in bed early and hopefully tomorrow will be better.
The other was just aggravation with myself.
I love to help...but sometimes that can be taken advantage of...and tonight I think that my kindness was taken advantage of by a man who said he needed money for his car.
I don't know...it was all just really weird and fishy, but I helped anyways because I know I have been in situations where I really did have car problems or ran out of gas and had to rely on the kindness of strangers. And it is a very awkward and hard thing to do to ask people for help--especially when it comes to asking for money.
But I still felt like a fool afterwards. And I still worried about money. It is not always easy to be kind.
Oh Elijah. I caught myself thinking about the future again today. What should have been. The things I'm not supposed to think about...like the clothes I should have handed down from Gabriel to you. And how after Gabriel starts school next year (if I don't give in to my homeschooling urges) I will not have another kid at home to hang out with all day. It is all the little sweet "should have" moments that make it so hard to Keep moving forward. I miss you so much kiddo. I will keep working hard for you because you deserve it. I love you my boogie. <3
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