"Hey ain't it good to know, that you got a friend, when people can be so cold. They'll hurt you and desert you-- oh they'll break your soul if you let them, ahh but don't you let them."
I've been thinking about friendships lately and relationships that have changed over my losing Elijah.
I have never been good at letting people in, but now I feel sourrounded by an island of grief and sadness that no one really wants to deal with other than people who kind of understand it.
I even have family members who have not said one word to me about losing Elijah...and it blows my mind.
I watch my friends move on and make stronger bonds with other friends...and I'm a little jealous, but not upset...because I can't really blame them. I am not myself anymore. I am not the person they were friends with. I am different.
But that is life I guess...so much has changed and I just have to pick up the pieces...be thankful for the people who do care and the people who have shown up since Elijah's passing and become my support system...
But that doesn't really take the sting away from losing people in my life that I thought I was important to.
My phone battery is dying and I am super tired ..
Keep up the prayers for me and The Love, Elijah Project, my family....And always pray for my Elijah.
I love you <3
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