489: "You Are The Stars To Me, You Are The Light I Follow"

It is 9:27pm.

This morning Julien, Alex and I got up "early" and went and volunteered at the local food pantry as our act of kindness in memory of Elijah.

It was really cute how excited the boys were to get to go and help. And they did pretty well for the most part.

Today was truck day and while we waited for the truck, we helped put away some items that different people donated. After that we also sorted clothing.

Well actually, while all the big burly men unloaded the truck, we sorted clothing some more lol.

But Alex did help move some pallets. So there's that.

Tomorrow we are going again. It is supposed to be a "sorting" day, so I think we are going to do great.

I really enjoyed helping out today. It was the perfect volunteer opportunity for me, because it wasn't anything too stressful or too emotional. And while I am doing much better, there are lots of things that can still tear me down, so I have to be careful on how I go about volunteering my time...if that makes sense.

Anyways, I left the food pantry today feeling amazing. Not to sound super corny, but I felt like a light was radiating out of my chest. It just felt like we did the right thing today. It felt like my little Elijah was proud.

And oh my gosh, today's weather was so perfect. So I went on a long walk and found little hearts everywhere. (For those of you who might not know this...hearts are one of my signs for Elijah).

It was just a good day. And I am really thankful for that.

Well, I better get some sleep. Gotta go change the world some more tomorrow ;)

Hope you all have a great night. Sending you lots of love and sunshine!

Please pray for our world. Pray for my family. Pray for me. Pray for you! And always always pray for my sweet Elijah.

You were all around me today.

I could feel it.

From the songs on the radio this morning,

to the hearts on my walk.

I am so happy to see all these signs.

Are you proud of me and your brothers?

Or did you just want to say hello?

Whatever the reason, I LOVED it and I am so thankful.

I love you I love you I love you!

I miss you I miss you I miss you!

Always.

<3

"You are the stars to me,

You are the light I follow.

I will see you again. 

This is not where it ends,

I will carry you with me

Till I see you again."

"One more day. One more time.

One more sunset maybe I'd be satisfied.

But then again, I know just what I'd do.

Leave me wishing still for one more day with you."