523: Baked Beans

It is 8:04pm.

You guys. I have promised myself I would finish this book I am reading, but it is not getting any more exciting lol.

And I haven't even finished the first "chapter."

The lady who wrote it is darling, and I don't know...very proper and respectable, but I am just not pulling any inspiration out of it.

I think because I can't relate to her, I am lost on the thrill. While she is doing something new and exciting, it is also something that she can very easily obtain. And the worst thing that could happen so far in the book is that she could fail a cooking class, or embarrass herself by speaking french poorly.

I need struggle to strength. I need kindness and giving and people changing the world. I need risk!

I am just longing for some good inspiration. Something that kicks me in the butt and says "If I can do it, you can do  it."

I need something that screams, "Kelly, you can totally change the world and you are a beautiful badass human being!"

Is that too much to ask for? lol.

I need to be motivated constantly and challenged, because if I am not feeling inspired, I start to spiral down into oblivion...and I really don't want that.

ANYWAYS.... today I  shared my second youtube video with social media. Yay!

I still have a long way to go, but I have learned so much in these last two days!

The kids are also excited and have been asking about making their own videos too.

I hope you enjoy my video, and I hope that seeing me take the plunge and chase another dream has maybe inspired you guys to start chasing your dreams too.

But my next big adventure is reading to the kids and going to bed lol. I am so sleepy.

P.S. Our family is now at 188 books on our "How many books can our family read in a year challenge"!

Alright, good night guys. Sending you lots of love and sweet dreams.

Please keep praying for our world. Pray for our country. Pray for my family. Pray for me. Pray for you! And always always pray for my sweet Elijah.

Thank you.

Oh my goodness 

you are so cute.

I love and miss you so much

and would give anything to

reach through this computer and grab you and hold you.

I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you

I love you

Always

<3