542: Dog Poop

It is 3:29pm in The Grand Canyon.

I gave up complaining for Lent and I should really be ashamed of myself, because lately (even under some of the most beautiful circumstances) I have been complaining a lot.

Like this morning, I somehow let myself get worked up over stepping on dog poop while standing in front of one of the most beautiful natural wonders in the world! For real? I drove 18 hours to be upset about dog poo? Luckily I was able to let that one go pretty quick.

However, I just got off the phone with my husband, who had to remind me that I wanted to be more positive and to complain less after a horrible fit throwing session with Julien and Gabriel. All of this over my request that they take a nap.

In fact, it got so bad, I threatened to leave and got the luggage cart from downstairs loaded it up and even had Gabriel walk it down to the lobby with me.

Here I am trying to make these beautiful happy youtube videos about my family trying to change the world and enjoy life, but in reality--sometimes life is just hard (yes, even on a beautiful vacation to The Grand Canyon).

But now, the sleepy heads are snoring and I am looking for my "this is good because _______" moment.

This is good and will always be good, because no matter what may come, we are still very lucky to have each other and to be alive.

This is good, because I still have a few days for us to have some well rested fun, including a sunset bus tour tomorrow afternoon.

This is good, because my children need to know that I can not and will not tolerate disrespect anymore. I am done.

So, we have things to work on when we get home. And we will. But for now, we will try to enjoy the rest of our vacation and be that happy and fun family you see in our youtube videos.

I love you guys. Thank you so much for reading and watching.

Here is the video from yesterday's travels from New Mexico to Arizona.

Please keep praying for our world. Pray for our country. Pray for my family. Pray for me. Pray for you! And always always pray for my sweet Elijah.

Thank you!

Oh sweet boy. 

I wrote your name in the snowy ice this morning right on top of the Grand Canyon!

I hope you saw it.

Tomorrow I am going to place a little angel with your name written on it 

down in the canyon on our hike.

Your brothers drive me crazy sometimes,

but I love them just like I love you.

I imagine if you were here too,

we would have our hands full,

but I would so much rather my hands full

than my arms empty.

I miss you so much Elijah.

Always.

<3