Saturday, April 1, 2017

567: Today

It is 9:35pm.

Today was a good day. Today was a hard day.

Today we raised $100 for Camp Cullin and were able to sponsor one more child for this summer's weekend retreat.

It feels really good to be able to pay forward the love that we received from this wonderful cause in some of our hardest moments.

Today we also played 98 minutes of patty cake for Elijah.

I miss him so much.

Today I really wish I could have done more. I am always wishing I could do more.

I don't know if that is a feeling that will ever change.

Today I did the best I could...and I should be proud of myself for that.

Today, Alex got to smash a cupcake in my face....here is the youtube video if you would like to watch.



Today I have decided that I am unstoppable.

Today I have decided that I just have to keep pushing forward because I will never really change the world if I let this yucky funk and doubt I am feeling right now take over.

Today I changed the world for one child who will get to attend Camp Cullin--and that is okay.

Tomorrow I will continue to change the world, because of Elijah.

Right now...I am going to take a shower and go to bed. Good night. I love you all.

Thank you so much for those of you who did contribute to Camp Cullin today. Your selflessness will really make the difference in a grieving family's life.

You can continue to donate, if you would like, here:

https://www.gofundme.com/campcullin16

Please keep praying for our world. Pray for our country. Pray for my family. Pray for me. Pray for you! And always always pray for my sweet Elijah.


I love you Elijah.
More and more everyday.
You have changed our lives in so many way...
I just want to bring that change to the world.
Miss you my boogie.
Always.
<3 








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