981: Algorithms

It is 9:57pm.

I just got finished tweeting like 100 people on Twitter trying to promote my FREE ebook of Elijah's Smiles Change the world.

I have faced several frustrations with this book from formatting to some issues with ordering from the company, etc. etc. and I am still working on clearing all this up....however, it seemed so much easier to get people to download a free ebook when I wrote The Kind Knight.

I remember having like 3000 downloads by day 3, and today at the end of day 1, I haven't reached 75.

Do people just not care anymore? Are Facebook algorithms screwing me over? OR did I do something wrong?

I hate even asking these questions, because it puts me in "victim mode," but something is clearly off. I am not reaching the people I once did, and it is hurting me as an author--and kind of as a person.

I feel isolated.

Elijah's birthday is just around the corner and it has me emotional. For one thing, this year has flown by and I feel like I have accomplished so little. For another, his birthdays are extremely hard for me, knowing all that "should have been" but isn't.

I know, I know. My mood lately has been far from inspiring. But as always, I try to be honest with what I am feeling, so there you go.

I am going to log off now, post my act of kindness and take a hot bath. I need to detach and stop worrying. I need to just let it go. I am doing my best in the circumstances I am in. I need to acknowledge the good that I have done and have faith that more good that is coming.

If you would like to download your free copy of Elijah's Smiles Change the World, you can here:
https://www.amazon.com/Elijahs-Smiles-Change-World-Airhart-ebook/dp/B07D3JSHQC/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&qid=1526585884&sr=8-2&keywords=elijah%27s+smile+change+the+world

If you do download the book, please try and leave an honest review on Amazon. This helps more than you will ever know.

Thank you for your love and support.

Go change the world. Do it for Elijah.

Thank you.

The last picture I ever took of you,

and it looks to me like you are glowing.

I wish I could just pick you up out of this photo and hold you.

I would never let you go.

I miss and love you so so so much.

Always.

<3