1041: karma

It is 9:33pm

For the longest time I told myself I don’t believe in Karma—mainly because I have seen too many bad things happen to good people. However today, for some random reason I had an epiphany about the whole thing. Whether or not you believe in divinity, we all have the gift of free choice. This means we are free to make both good and bad choices. Unfortunately this also means some of us fall victim to the bad choices of others. We have no control over other people’s actions, even as much as some people would like to think they do.

Shit happens. Not everything happens for a reason. We can not control tragedy. No one earns untimely death, rape, terminal illness or other horrible events in their life. And while people can turn tragedy into beauty, please stop trying to make people feel like crap by saying they caused their own tragedies. That’s not karma.

But back to karma. Karma is not a reward of punishment system. It is not something you should wish on someone for something they did bad to you, or to others. It’s not voodoo. Karma is the lesson of learn when you’ve made a bad choice in life, and later you are on the other side of that bad choice. It is an opportunity to grow and learn from that information. It is your chance to now use that information to do better and make better choices. It is not a punishments—even if it feels like it. The “punishment” would be, I guess, not learning the lesson and repeating the mistake over and over again. This can destroy yourself and others around you.

Another reason I was also so against the idea of karma is because people tend to say “if you do good, good will come back to you.” Not to sound uppity or high and mighty or whatever, but I don’t do good expecting it to come back to me. I do good to do good. I do good because it’s the right thing to do. And honestly, that is how good should be done. But if we play the karma game, when the good comes back to you, and you are on the other side of it, it is an opportunity to learn and grow too. It is an opportunity to see how nice it feels to be suppeorted and cared for. It is a reminder that you should continue to help others and be grateful for those who help you.

I have experienced both sides of this “karma” thing... believe me I am far from perfect. And for whatever reason today I just thought I needed to share.

Sending you all lots of love.

Go change the world. Do it for Elijah.

Thank you.


Elijah,
I am blogging from your dads phone and it does not let me post pictures to the blog for some reason. But your little face is never forgotten and is always present in my heart. I love and miss you so much. Always.