I have had a rough day. But there is someone I know how has it rougher right now, and I would give anything to be able to take that fear and pain away. Today I heard someone I love very much tell me they were terrified and I am in tears right now because I don't know how to help. I don't want to reveal too much information, but please please send love. I wish more than anything I could do more than just send love, but tonight....love is all I have.
Also today I had to come to the harsh realization that somethings are not meant to be, and no matter how hard you try, you can't please everyone. Two women dropped out of my retreat, putting an already "dire" situation in an even more "dire" state.
My drive home from Baton Rouge took like 5 hours because my stomach was not happy with all the stress. I didn't get my "capture my grief" picture done tonight... I will try to paint and post it tomorrow morning. BUT I did find a way to make the retreat work...because I owe it to the ladies who stayed faithful even when things didn't work out the way I hoped. AND I owe it to myself, to not give up, to not let go, and to honor my dreams.
One day I will look back and laugh that my first retreat only had 3 guests. Tonight, I am at peace with the company I will be keeping and the memories we will make together. I was saying earlier this was my "practice" retreat, but it isn't practice at all. This is the real deal. This is the start to a new and exciting adventure in my life...
Now to make up for the "loss of money" in ornament and book sales this Christmas lol... wish me luck!
Alright, I hope my stomach settles soon so I can get some sleep. I am exhausted.
Sending you all lots of love. Have a beautiful night.
Go change the world. Do it for Elijah.
Thank you.
You know where to send love Elijah.
Please send it.
Thank you.
I love and miss you so much.
Always.
<3
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