1141: I'm Sorry.

It is 10:52pm.

Today Alex and I put out pumpkins on random porches, and brought pumpkins to a few local places in town in memory of Elijah.

It was a beautiful day outside and when we got home, the kids all ran and played outside with the dogs. It was so nice to see them really having a good day laughing and playing together.

It has been an emotional week or so, dealing with my bank account being frozen, preparing for this retreat, the pumpkin competition (which really wasn't like a huge deal...lol..but I can get competitive some times and create unnecessary stress for myself), and then tonight I hit a cat with my car :(

I was writing my blog for my art page when I realized I had not fed the dogs I am dog sitting this evening yet. I panicked, and rushed over to feed them and let them out. They were fine, and I was feeling better, but on the way home a cat ran out under the van as I was driving and there was no way to stop.

I feel so awful right now. I hate this for the cat. I hate this for the owners.

Just send lots of love. I am just so so sorry.

Blahh...

I'm going to go take a bath now and try to some how get some sleep. I have a doctor's appointment in the morning and so does Levi.

Please pray and send love for this cat's family. I am again, so so sorry. I feel terrible. I hope this sweet kitty is at peace.

Sending you all tons of love.

Go change the world. Do it for Elijah.

Thank you.

Oh Elijah.

What do I do?

I hate that I hit this cat.

I hate that I brought it's family sadness and grief.

Please, if you see the kitty up there in heaven, let it know I am so sorry.

I love you sweet boy.

I love you I love you I love you I love you.

Always.

<3