1189: My Little Linus

December 12, 2012

It is 7:28pm.

I don’t have internet. We are at Granny’s house and I am waiting to get a phone card for my phone…but even if my phone had it’s “plan” right now, I would much rather type out my blog on my computer than my cell phone. So I’ll blog here now and post later. This of course, is all useless information to you lol.

Yesterday I was over listening to my kids listening to one of my kids listening to a YouTube video, and the guy was “copying” another YouTuber who did random thoughts videos, and you know what? I think I would be really good at that lol…of course some of my thoughts are wayyyy out there at times, but that is what makes it fun right? 

Also, I have been putting some serious thought into making “skits” based on the odd events in my life and calling it, “The Awkward Life of Kelly Airhart.” With the skits, I could do a comic strip book. I know I know…I have a lot going on, and am all over the place…..but this combines a lot of my skills: acting, writing, drawing, being weird, and helping people.

This will be an after the first of the year thing, right now I am working on my yoga teaching certification. In fact, I should probably be studying that right now.

ugh.

Today I bought myself a little stuffed Linus. I found him at CVS when I was walking to the checkout counter. I struggled with whether or not to buy it, but when I put him back on the shelf, my heart almost broke in a million pieces…so I bought it. And I have been cuddling it all day, almost breaking down several times. 

The holidays are hard without Elijah. 

I know I am so blessed to spend these days with my living children and see them be blessed by family and loved ones, and I am totally thankful….but there is always that thought of what “should be,” or “what could be.” 

I miss him so much.

Sending you guys all lots of love. Have a beautiful night.

Go change the world. Do it for Elijah..

Elijah,

If I could have ANYTHING for Christmas, you know I would always choose you.

I love and miss you my boogie.

Always.

<3