I had a pretty productive day but as always when the evening rolls around I feel myself overwhelmed by all the things that are just so horribly wrong...
I am trying to stay strong....but it is hard.
There is only so much I can do.
I am guessing we didn't win any radio contests and while I am usually a pretty rational person...this is destroying me for some reason.
I just wanted to matter...I wanted Elijah to matter.
No stupid radio contest would have proved that I guess... but I am so desperate for some sort of miracle these days I was just hoping that it would have proved something....
Anyways... I will find a way to pull us out of this hole. I will do it because my kids deserve it.
Ugh....I'm just in a bad mood and need to go to bed.
Just pray for me. Pray for my family. And always pray for my sweet Elijah.
Hi little sunflower.
Hi my sweet boy.
Hi Elijah.
I miss you so much.
I love you more than you could ever imagine.
Why did this have to happen to us?
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