delirium

It is 11:08pm.

I am bathtub blogging.

Infact you can guarantee that 90% of my blogging is done in the bathtub.

I could live in a bathtub forever.

Well maybe not...I would get stir crazy at some point. And sleeping in a bathtub is ill advised. Plus I can't travel the world in a bathtub...or do much kindness from there....

Anyways today I worked 12 hours....if you can't tell.

I was not very successful when it came to upholding motivational Monday posting.

Eventually I guess I will figure it all out.

Tomorrow my goal is to post a new blog on our new page.

My goal is also to find us somewhere else to live..

Today Levi found cigarette butts in his car and none of us smoke.

It just weirds me out.

He says nothing was missing but someone was where they didn't belong...and without permission.

We are ok. And our biggest complaint about this hotel is just the lack of Wi-Fi....but I have no idea how cigarettes got in the car and I don't feel comfortable with it.

Just weird stuff keeps happening...and I don't understand why.

Maybe the law of attraction is a thing and i am just asking for all this crap to just keep happening because I acknowledge it or some shit...

Idk universe, it's kind of hard to be thankful right now but I think I am doing a pretty damn good job of it...

I would like a breather.

I would like to just catch one deep breathe..

Isn't that a positive thought? Can we build on that?

Ugh.  I need sleep.

I need to not be this crazy homeless lady who lost her baby and just has stupid shit continuously happen over and over again....

Because as strong as I might seem....I am drowning...and I need it to stop.

I just want my Elijah back...

I just miss him so much.

Oh sweet boy. I just want to hold you again. It is a good thing heaven last forever, Because it will take a lifetime of just holding you again to get over my broken heart.

I miss and love you so so so much.

<3