We have a long road ahead of us. We are supposed to leave for Florida any minute now.
I will be 100% honest when I say I don't want to leave. I work tomorrow and then am off Sunday and then work again Monday. I don't want any of this...
I don't know if I can handle these next few days.
Although we have already kind of celebrated Easter with the kids...the actual day is coming up and all of sudden it really hit me that it is another holiday we won't be spending with Elijah.
My heart is breaking all over again and I'm really not looking forward to getting in the car in a little while and having 12 hours or so to just drive and think about it some more...then rushing to work...
But the car is already packed.
Should I stay or should I go?
I am sure my parents are reading this and saying I need to go to work. Worry about the job I have.
I'm sure I need to be a responsible adult...
But everything in my heart and in my head is just tired of work and carrying on with a normal life and a normal job...
Especially this week :(
I just miss him so much and it is not fair.
Hi my little sunflower. Hi my sweet boy. Hi my Elijah. I miss you so much and want so badly to hold you. I want to be able to sneak you a little bite of peeps and give you a teething biscuit and little bunny to slobber on for Easter. I just want to hold you and kiss those cheeks again. You should be here. I love you my boogie...I always will.
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