Tomorrow

It is 8:10pm.

Tomorrow we leave for Florida.

I am not ready to leave....but I am never ready to leave.

I know that Florida has some great things waiting for my family and I am excited to get the kids and Levi back to the gym and Keep working on my art therapy room, but it is a long trip and well...We are pretty much headed back to another hotel room.

I feel like we are close to a break through on our housing situation, and I am trying to just live life day by day, but that doesn't mean it isn't a challenge.

Fundraising has been going well. Today's goal was $25 and I made that goal first thing this morning by selling the washboard I fixed up.

I still need to do more...

I have raised an impressive ammount, but I still have a long way to go.

I am thinking about holding a summer art camp, or doing some farmers markets...I don't know.

I just have to keep myself motivated to get through our #pattycakeforelijah fundraiser and then in April I am applying for a huge grant contest and hoping for the best...then I will take it from there.

I am letting myself get discouraged and overwhelmed for some reason today...

I have no idea why.

Maybe it is the return to reality that is happening tomorrow.

Maybe it is the painful abscense of Elijah.

Whatever it is...it has hit me hard and making me extremely anxious.

Just keep me in your prayers and Keep the support coming. It is not always easy to ask for help. But is so much easier when you have wonderful people supporting you.

(and you don't have to support with money...your likes and shared help a lot too!)

I remember this night. I remember how happy I was. We were watching Jurassic Park 3 and I was so proud of my beautiful family. I was so proud of the beautiful baby that has just joined us. I just want to go back...

I love you so much Elijah and miss you always.
I wish I could hold you again. I wish I had never left you that day. I wish a million things. But I also wish you peace and my love...always

Goodnight my boogie. Shine down on us. Tomorrow is going to be a long day :(