We are back at one of our "usual" hotels and I am happy to say that Elijah's ashes and blanket are back here with us too...well as happy as one can be about that anyway.
Today has been busy.
We slept in, which was nice, checked out of our hotel (which was really nice), and headed to storage to load up both vehicles. Then we brought all of the stuff we loaded back to the studio, sorted through it and put it away...then went back to this hotel. I went grocery shopping and washed clothes while Levi put the kids to bed. While the clothes were being washed and dried I went and got all I could out of storage and put it in the back of Levi's SUV.
Apparently I really like to pack with trash bags and Wal-Mart bags because I filled the whole back end of the car with one small table and then tons and tons of bags....
Anyways once I got back here, I made some bracelets for an etsy order, donated a photo in memory of Elijah, and now I am multi tasking by bathtub blogging.
Anyways, being productive and having Elijah back with us makes me feel so much better today...
But now I am going to wrap up this blog and this bath and go work on some more letters to send off to ask for donations.
Personal donations have seen to come to a hault, so I am praying that by reaching out to the community I will find new hope...cause we certainly need it!
Oh silly boy. I miss you so much. I know you were with us today. Did you see the snake this morning? He was beautiful. I wish I could have seen your face and held you while we watched it together.
I found a lot of your things you never got to see in storage today. I stayed strong and kept moving, but a little piece of me fell apart again.
I will never be able to let that stuff go.
To me, you are still an important part of this family and your stuff is still your stuff.
One day maybe I'll end up selling a million books and then I can buy us a house with enough rooms to include a room just for you. It will be the nursery you never got to have and in will put all your stuff in it. It will be our little sacred space!
I miss you kiddo...but it is time to go try and change the world for you!!!
I love you my boogie.
<3
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