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It is 10:15pm

Of course I would find out last minute there is a walk for pregnancy and infant loss tomorrow morning in my area...so all my dreams of sleeping in tomorrow are now out the window....but at least it is not at 6am.

The gym was brutal on my emotions this morning...

I cried a lot.

And its hard because I'm sure people just think I'm a wimp...and I kind of am...but I was tired and frustrated and then the tears started and just wouldn't stop.

But I did the best I could....

And I have some battle wounds to show for it...

But I made it through my first week without quitting!!!!

Gold star sticker for me ⭐

Anyways....today we had another visitor at the studio and she meant to be there AND she brought me sunflowers!!!!

I love them! And I am so glad she came by to see the place and offer encouragement. You don't know how much I needed that today.

And Levi shared a dream he had last night about Elijah.

He said that we were in a hotel room and he was on one bed with Elijah (who was dead) and I was on the other bed typing on the computer. 

Then he said he heard Elijah breathing and he put his hand on his chest and Elijah came back to life and we got to hold him and hear him laugh...

And I asked to take a picture with him...and then he said he either thought in the dream that this couldn't happen because we cremated Elijah, or he woke up thinking it...

But I'm glad he got to hear Elijah laughing and see him smile <3

I'm tearing up just thinking about it.

I miss him so much....

Also..as you might have noticed, I fixed up this blog a little bit ;)

And now it is time for sleep...I am so excited I found this organization here and there walk tomorrow. I think that we could work well together and I could get more people into our Art Therapy Studio by partnering with them!

Good night 

Oh sweet boy.

Thank you for visiting your dad in his dreams last night.

I can't tell you how much that makes my heart smile.

I hope I didn't deter you from visiting my dreams by freaking out a little over the last dream I had of you....I love you and you are always welcome to visit.

Better get some sleep so I can walk for you tomorrow and start to make some big changes.

I love you my boogie.

Always. 

<3