433: Wait For Me To Come Home

It is 7:23pm.

Thank you for your thoughts and prayers, both Julien and Gabriel are feeling much better today.

We are house/dog sitting again, and the kids are so happy. They love these dogs.

Today I have been working on getting more stuff done for the craft show, and it is time for a break lol.

Last night I had a bad flashback moment. I had a very vivid flashback to that first moment of finding Elijah lifeless, and I pretty much sobbed myself to sleep.

I begged God to please just give him back, and asked why over and over again.

I woke up groggy and in a terrible mood this morning, but after packing the car up and doing my best to change my attitude, I was able to function without biting anyone's head off.

On the way back to Natchitoches, we heard the song "Photograph" by Ed Sheran, which is one of my songs for Elijah and I always treat it as a sign that Elijah is near.

Anyways in the song it says, "wait for me to come home," and later today while I was at Wal-Mart I got an email from Molly Bears saying, "Your Elijah bear is on his way home."

I literally cried in the middle of Wal-Mart. It was just the most amazing timing.  I hadn't heard that song in weeks, and then today I heard it when I needed it the most, and it was followed by this little email that just melted my heart.

And I swear I have seen little hearts everywhere today.

He is so near.

I just wish he was in my arms.

Anyways, I need to go take a bath or something. My back and legs are killing me from sitting all day trying to put together some "Cajun Snowman Soup" packages ;)

I even tried to go on a walk to see if that would help get my circulation moving, but the only thing that feels better from my walk is my heart from donating my charity miles to Every Mother Counts in memory of Elijah.

Please keep up the positive thoughts and prayers. Today I found out that since yesterday I have had 5 orders from my webpage. And I am so very excited and thankful, but I am still so very nervous about this weekend.

And of course, don't forget to pray for our world. Pray for my family. Pray for me. And always always pray for my sweet sweet Elijah <3

Oh Oh Oh!

My heart.

You speak to me through the divide of Heaven and Earth

and I know that I am loved.

I just hope you know how much I love you too.

I miss you so very much

and can't wait to get your Elijah Bear!

But I would much rather be snuggling you my boogie.

<3