434: Elijah Bear

It is 11:28pm.

Today has been the most bizarre day.

My head and my heart can't seem to be in the same page and the world is just spinning in every direction.

First, I woke up around 1 or 2 in the morning feeling like absolute crap and I couldn't sleep so I checked my facebook and found out that we now have a spot for our holiday remembrance tree!!!

So after finally going back to sleep again...I woke up and was randomly drawn to check the finger paints I made and were so proud of when I opened one container and found they had gone sour.

So after some panicking, I looked up some other alternatives, which I hope to put together tomorrow successfully.

Then I worked on putting these little candy and hot cocoa bags allllllll day.

Well not all day, Becasue we were supposed to go help my dad with some stuff at our new place But Alex locked my keys in my car and we had to call a lock Smith and wait.....

But after the lock Smith opened my car I found out that the keys sitting in the car weren't the actual keys to the car...the keys to the car were actually hidden under a pillow on the couch the whole time...

So I shrugged that off and my dad texted me to let me know Elijah's bear had came in...

So I went to pick him up.

Levi and I opened it together and it couldn't have been more perfect.

I will share a picture later, but just holding the bear that was around the same weight as Elijah made me want to cry. Good tears and dad tears.

But I have already read stories to it with Julien and Gabriel and did a little bit of patty cake....

I bet It sounds strange, but you have no idea how much this teddy bear means to me.

Anyways....I am exhausted and have sooo much to do over the next few days. So I need sleep.

Good night everyone.

Please keep praying for our world. Pray for my family. Pray for me. And always always pray for my sweet Elijah.

Thank you.

Oh my little Elijah bear <3

I wonder if it brings you comfort when I hold this silly teddy bear.

Just know always

That I would rather be holding you.

I love and miss you so much.

<3