442: Included

It is 10:08pm.

Levi and I just got back from a trip to Wal-Mart.

We went to go get a bathtub drain cover and ended up leaving with a few Christmas presents for Gabriel lol.

We did get the drain cover too ;)

I am not usually a black Friday shopper, but today we did get our Christmas tree 1/2 off and the stuff that was left over from black Friday this morning at Wal-Mart.

Anyways, today we put up our Love, Elijah Holiday Remembrance Tree.

My mom, Alex, Gabriel and me all drove out to the Christmas tree farm and we did our best to get all 200 something stockings hung.

We did not have a ladder, but I think we did okay for what we had.

In this case it is really the thought that counts more than anything.

It was very emotional for me and although I did well to keep in good spirit, I could feel the sting of loss underneath it all.

But I am so honored to be able to help so many families remember their sweet babies and children this Christmas.

We also moved our couch and t.v. over today (even though we can't really watch anything on our tv yet).

They are little things, but eventually we will get this place as homely as possible.

The kids are at my dad's again, except Gabriel who wanted to come back here...

Oh!!! And tonight Gabriel actually have me kisses. This is very exciting Becasue Gabriel NEVER kisses ANYONE.

It made me so happy you guys...

Anyways, I am going to eat some wings and really try to rest tonight (last night I ended up waking up with a sour stomach and vomiting...not fun).

Tomorrow I need to start planning for Christmas Festival...

Hope you all having a peaceful evening.

Please continue to pray for our world. Pray for my family. Pray for me. And always always pray for my sweet Elijah.

Thank you.

Oh Elijah.

Tonight as we were digging through the pajamas on sale, we saw a Batman pj set that would have been your size. I almost got it...I guess I could have and donated It somewhere. I just don't want you to feel like we don't think about you at Christmas. I will look for something special for you this year. Another book. Maybe another place to put your name. Donate a tree somewhere? I don't know...But we will always find a way to include you.

Love and miss you so much sweet boy.

<3