Thursday, November 24, 2016

441: Happy Thanksgiving Elijah

It is 7:36pm.

Last Thanksgiving a "friend" I had know since I was 4 or 5 decided to message me and tell me I should be thankful because  "at least" I had family to be with that day because she was all alone.

Her words still sit heavy with my heart.

While I don't want anyone to be alone on Thanksgiving, there really is no "at least" when it comes to living without Elijah.

Yes, I am incredibly thankful for all of my family and that they love me and are so supportive.

But that empty space where the high chair and fussy baby should be will always be present in my mind, and there is no "at least" that can make me feel better about it.

I don't know why that still bothers me, but it does.

Anyways....

Today was a beautiful Thanksgiving.

I am so thankful for premade turkeys from Popeyes and aluminum pans to make it easy to cook and clean up....lol.

But we had thanksgiving at our new place and my parents and brother joined us and it was really enjoyable.

After we ate we cleaned up the yard a little and started work on a tire swing for the kids.

After we clean the tire Alex found tomorrow, we will finish.

The kids went to my dad's house with my parents and I finished our tiny stocking to hang on our Holiday Remembrance Tree tomorrow.

Now Levi is sleeping and it is really quiet lol.

I should probably get some sleep too so I can maybe finally feel rested tomorrow.

Anyways...I just want you all to know how thankful I am for your love and support...

I also want you to really be thankful for all the good going on in your life.

And of course, please keep praying for our world. Pray for my family. Pray for me. And always always pray for my sweet Elijah.

Thank you


Oh sweet boy.
I am forever thankful to be your momma.
Love and miss you so much.
Happy Thanksgiving in Heaven.

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