I decided to take it easy today and not really add anything to our load for Christmas Festival.
It is just too much stress for me, and I really do not need anymore stress.
I went and picked up a tent from my friend and then my mother in law came into town and we went to eat lunch and get a tarp for the rain tomorrow.
We also went and visited Elijah's tree.
The storms last week blew some of the stockings off, and we put them back on. But the banner I had on the tree and Elijah's big stocking were gone :(
I tried to keep it all together but on the way back Levi could tell I was upset and we talked about these dreams that have been bothering me and I cried for a while...
I cried for Elijah. I cried because I will never have another baby to hold. I cried because babies make me so anxious.
But then I found myself busy again...and busy I have stayed ever since.
I have stopped stressing about tomorrow because there is really no point.
I can't control the weather.
So now all there is left to do is go out there and give it our best shot.
Wish us luck and send lots of love and prayers.
Maybe there will be some sort of Christmas Festival Miracle. Who knows.
Time to get some rest.
Tomorrow is a big day.
Please pray for our world. Pray for my family. Pray for me. And always always pray for my sweet Elijah. <3
Send us some love for tomorrow sweet boy...
and maybe a little sunshine <3
Love and miss you so much.
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