Tuesday, January 24, 2017

502: Whomp Whomp

It is 10:05pm.

Can I just say thank you?

Like seriously, thank you to those of you who still read my blog every night (or even once in a while).

I generally try to thank you at the end of my blogs, but today I am going to start at the beginning because I feel like it is really important to let you know that you are part of the reason that I am still holding on.

If I didn't have my blog, I would have fallen apart by now. And if I didn't have you guys reading it, I would feel like no one cared...

And here I am still going. And here I am still feeling like quite a few people care.

So, even though I do get down in the dumps sometimes and life can still be very hard, I am ALWAYS so very thankful for all of you.

:)

Sooooo.... Day one of my 3 day compliment challenge was a bust lol. How about you guys? lol.

Whomp. Whomp.

Even though I took the time to write it in to my planner, I didn't really remember about the challenge until pretty late this evening.  By then, I realized that I only really gave out one compliment today.

But that is okay! You know why? I gave somebody a reason to smile. Even if it was just one person.

I found that it is hard to pull of compliments in very short conversations, or if you don't know a person, or if they are not very talkative, or if they are not smiling, or if you yourself are socially awkward ;)

And to be honest, even though I do acts of kindness every single day. Sometimes I find those hard to do too!

Often I find that I am not the kind of person I want to be, and I find that I am not being kind at all.

If we are going to continue to be so honest, I will tell you that I am far from perfect and I am definitely no superhero. But I find my strength in keeping Elijah's legacy of love and kindness alive. And I know that I can always be better, so that is what I strive for--the better me.

If I have learned anything from this very broken life I have led it is that kindness can save lives, and kindness can show up in the most random ways from the most random people.

Anyways, long story short, you don't have to be perfect to be kind. And you can fail at something, and still make a difference.

So don't give up!

Tomorrow is day 2 of the compliment challenge, and even if you haven't started let's all commit to trying to give out more compliments tomorrow.

I'll start right now. I might not know who is reading my blog, but I know they are a beautiful human being and they matter. <3

Your turn! Go out there and change the world with your compliments! Do it for my Elijah.

And of course, please pray for our world. Pray for my family. Pray for me. Pray for you! And always always pray for my sweet Elijah.

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you!


I am so very thankful Elijah for the 98 days we got together,
and the many more before that where I held you in my womb.
If I had the chance, I would ask for all the days with you.
You have to know that I miss you like crazy,
and I always love you more.
Goodnight sweet boy. 
Send me some sweet dreams 
<3












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