We are still in Georgia.
Today Mamaw was put on an oxygen tube, which seems to be helping her breathing.
She is still in good spirits, but she is also pretty aware of her situation.
Today I read a really good article that kind of correlates with my "no complaints" sacrifice I was trying for Lent.
To be honest, I have not been keeping up with that at all....so this was a good "check in and reevaluate moment."
It was an article about parenting, and how we as parents can be really harsh with our criticism and our need to "control" our children's behaviors. Also, we can be real control freaks when it comes to our desires for our kids to be "perfect."
The truth is our kids are individuals, and they are not our "mini me's." They should not have to look for approval as much as they should be looking to us for guidance.
I struggle with this big time....believe me. Lucky for me, my kids ignore this and continue to have strong personalities anyways lol.
Anyways, going back to how we sometimes "bully" our kids, or are really quick to jump to harsh criticisms and how a woman used 3 words daily to change this.
She decided to wake up each morning and say "only love today," and then live her life accordingly. She would use these words to check in before deciding to discipline. She would use these words often.
Not only would she use these words, she decided to allow more mistakes. She decided to listen more. She decided to be more patient and of course more loving.
It was a really great read, and it was definitely something I needed.
http://community.today.com/parentingteam/post/the-damage-of-a-difficult-mother-how-she-helped-her-child-heal?cid=sm_fbn_pt
My kids are not perfect, but that in itself is the most perfect thing about them. I love my children dearly, and from this moment on I think I am going to start my mornings with "Only love today."
Alright, it is time to go take a hot bath and get some rest.
Love you all. Hope you are having a beautiful night.
Please keep praying for our world. Pray for our country. Pray for my family. Pray for me. Pray for you! And always always pray for my sweet Elijah.
Thank you.
You know, I go back everyday into the photo albums I posted the day after you passed away to get these photos. And everyday I hope to find one that I have never seen, or that somehow
there would be more.
I noticed today how I have been taking less photos of your brothers than I used to.
I don't know if this a side affect of grief.
I don't know what it is.
They are growing up and it makes me sad.
But you never growing up makes me even more sad.
I love and miss you so much.
<3
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