I just started reading a book that I think I am really going to love.
It is called, "Live What You Love."
Eeek! So excited to share some new nuggets of inspiration with you guys as I read on...
And I am so glad I started reading it today, because honestly.... I was kind of having an Eeyore kind of day...
You know what I am talking about. We all have them:
Sometimes I do feel like I am here waving my arms, trying to tell this amazing story of love and kindness and it is overshadowed by some mysterious force that just does not want me to do my thing.
And then sometimes, I have to remind myself that I am doing what I love and doing it the best I can and I just have to push through all the muck...
I am bound to make some sort of difference at some point.
This is just coming from a girl who was usually not invited to the cool kids' sleepovers, and had no one show up at the majority of her parties growing up (and even as a grown up).
It is a self esteem issue. Plain and simple.
I have no problem admitting that.
I have grown up so much and I really do love the person I am becoming, but I still have struggles with anxiety and depression-- and when they strike, it can drag me back down and make me question really simple things. And then the simple things snowball into this giant boulder that I sometimes carry all day.
Some of it is situational. I have all these huge dreams, but at the moment I really feel stuck, and I also have some other issues that are bringing a lot of stress in my life right now that I don't have a lot of control over at this very moment...
And some of it is that scared little girl that comes out in me every once in a while that just wants to know she is doing okay and that her hard work has been noticed--or at least is making some sort of difference.
But yep, that was my "Eeyore" type of day.
Don't worry though, I have made it through much much worst...I won't let today get me down.
So, onto something more uplifting ;)
Last night I made a "Make A Difference Monday" video on YouTube where I announced a contest where you can win a copy of my children's book The Kind Knight.
In order to be entered, all you have to do is go to the actual video on YouTube and leave a comment about one kind act you have done recently. It does not have to be anything grand, it could be that you smiled at a stranger today, or held the door for an elderly man.. On Friday I will be doing a reading of The Kind Knight on my channel, and I will announce the winner in that video! So far, I have had ZERO people leave a comment :( So to be honest, your chances are pretty good at winning lol :)
But what if you already have a copy? Well, first off thank you so much for that! But, you can still play! If you leave a comment and I choose your name, you can just gift the book to someone you know who might like it...or you can tell me a charity you would like to donate it to!
I would really love to have some participation, and the kids really wanted to help chose a winner so I don't want to let them down either.
Alright, I have to get up early tomorrow morning. I have to move out the rest of my things from the last house we were staying in because they sold it and apparently the people want to move in right away...
Good night everyone. Love you all. Thanks for noticing me ;)
Please keep praying for our world. Pray for our country. Pray for my family. Pray for me. Pray for you! And always always pray for my sweet Elijah.
Thank you.
Last night I had a dream I was pregnant,
I think it was with you.
I was so worried because I couldn't feel you move.
It caused me a lot of anxiety this morning
(that and being woke up before I was ready to a stressful situation).
I just miss you so much and wish that things were different.
I love you sweet boy.
I love you my boogie.
Always.
<3
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