We made it to The Polar Express Today and had such a fun time! It was really cute and I am so thankful for my mom who gifted us this experience for Christmas. When Alex was really little, he would binge watch the movie while we were living at home with her and my dad, so I know that this holds a special place in her heart. Alex is a bit older now, lol, but I really think that he enjoyed it. Julien and Gabriel even got to do a Santa impression and get an extra cookie. PLUS! Gabriel got to help with singing Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer <3
I couldn't help but think about how much Elijah would have enjoyed all of today too. The train, the music, the cookies. He said, "hi," a few times with some hearts to let us know he was near, but I still missed him like crazy.
Even though today was fun, it was also extremely stressful because my body is still achy. The arm pain, that I thought I was mostly done with, has reintroduced itself in my other arm and it has caused me to have no patience with the kids. For the most part they were really good today and I was able to relax and enjoy myself, but there were a few moments riding in the car where I could have kept my cool and I didn't. Luckily my kids are pretty forgiving and super fantastic. They have showered me with hugs and love, even after I was a complete grouch.
P.S. Now I understand why Dr. House was such a grump lol. Chronic pain is no fun. It seriously stresses your body AND your mind. I am ready to see this new specialist and hopefully get some relief (again).
Okay, I am going to watch some more Stranger Things with Levi until I fall asleep (which probably won't be too much longer).
Sending you all lots of love. I will have new YouTube videos up in the next couple of days to share all of our 25 days of Christmas for Elijah and so you can see our trip on The Polar Express. Get excited!
Keep praying for our world. Pray for our Earth. Pray for our families. Pray for our children. Pray for hope. Pray for peace. Pray for love. And always always pray for my sweet sweet Elijah.
Thank you.
Thank you for my hearts today!
I thought of you today,
about what you might look like if you were here.
I can never really see your face,
but I picture a head full of curly hair bouncing around with your brothers.
I can picture you laughing with a big smile
(even if I can't recognize the rest of your face).
I just wish you were here.
I love you so much.
Missing you.
Always.
<3
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