Thursday, April 26, 2018

961: Nope. Not Gonna.

It is 9:21pm.

Tonight I decided to just let go of this crazy idea I have that I always need to do it all, and I decided to drop out of The Farmer's Market this spring. I don't have books right now, so for me it is not worth the stress of trying to make something that is not my true passion work for a short amount of time--just so I can make money. Because honestly, I usually end up loosing money and it isn't fun anymore.

Also, there are now deposits and requirements to be there every week, and I just can't commit to that right now. So much is in the air, and I really want to travel and promote my book this summer. The whole appeal of Farmer's Market was to be a hippie vendor who just shows up when they feel like it and have fun. Now, it is starting to feel like a job with a boss--and again, that is just not for me.

Do I still need money? Yes! Absolutely lol. I am broke as a joke right now, but I'm not stressing. I believe with all my heart that this overwhelming peace means that my Angels have my back, and blessings are the way. Money will come, but my happiness and peace of mind can start right now.

Alright. Time to go take a bath, and decompress. I am proud of myself for this decision, and I'm sure the kids will be THRILLED to know that all the candy and sprinkles I bought for donut toppings will available for their snacking pleasure lol (over time of course).

Sending you all lots of love. Live your life for you. Follow your dreams. You can totally do this.

Go change the world. Do it for Elijah.

Thank you.


I love you sweet boy.
Oh how I love you. 
I miss you more than you will ever know-
please know that.
You are loved.
Always.
<3 





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