Thursday, May 3, 2018

967: Early Bird

It is 5:48am.

I have been thinking about waking up early again for a while now, but usually when my alarm clock goes off I am so tired that I just turn it off and "sleep in" anyways. This morning, my body had me awake at 4:40 something. Don't know if I am 100% thrilled about this yet, but this has allowed me to do some "self work" without cutting into time with the kids, which is nice.

Next step- walking. But not today because my phone is dead and I don't feel comfortable walking in the dark without it. I may possibly go back to sleep and go for a walk after the kids are up and eating breakfast. I need to walk more. My body needs to get up and move. I sit a lot lately and I am starting to see the toll it is taking on my body.

Small steps to self betterment.

I have to stop going to bed so late. I need more rest. I need to calm the *f down and enjoy life a little more. I need to be more thankful.

I have some wonderful things in my life, but 1/2 the time I don't see them because I am so stressed about the things I don't have. I'm not perfect. I'm human. I forgive myself. Now it is time to be better.

I am proud of myself for getting up this morning and working on me. I can do this. I can make my dreams come true.

Sending you guys all lots of love. Hope you have a beautiful day <3 Go change the world. Do it for Elijah.

Thank you.


Oh Elijah.
My heart is in a million places.
Some of them with you.
I love and miss you. 
Shine down on me.
Always.
<3 

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