988: I Remember

It is 9:49pm.

You guys. I am SO in love with meal planning lol. I went grocery shopping today for meals until next Saturday and was able to walk out with only spending $65. This included SOME organic choices, and I even got to get my grass fed beef.

Also, the planning takes SOOOO much anxiety out of my shopping experience and cuts my time in 1/2 (or more).

I know, I know, such a weird thing to be excited about, but if we don't get excited about the little things, then we miss out on so many joys in our lives.

It feels good to feel good. <3

Like I said, I know I have been quiet on Facebook, but I have been hard at work on multiple projects.

However, this next couple of weeks I am going to devote to spending with the kids, because pretty soon they are going to be in summer camp all day long. 

I have already mapped out how I will be using that "me" time to work on my school talks for Elijah Smiles and start making YouTube content. I will have 30ish days of no kids at home (except Alex occasionally) and it is going to be so weird, but I am also kind of looking forward to the quiet time to work on projects and just kind of enjoy some "me time."

If you would like to REALLY help us make a difference for Elijah Smiles, I have started a fundraiser on Facebook that runs from now to Elijah's birthday (and a day after that I think...wasn't sure how they count the dates). Anyways, the fundraiser lists all the things we need money for and all the ways you can help. So far we have raised $50 towards our $1500 goal.

Elijah's Birthday S.M.I.L.E.S. Fundraiser

ANY and ALL donations help. Thank you tremendously. You are amazing.

Alright you guys, sending you all love. Go out there and change the world. Do it for Elijah.

Thank you.

Oh sweet boy. 

Your birthday is my favorite memory of all time.

I had became the mother to 4 beautiful boys

and it felt amazing.

I remember how quickly you came,

the fire burning as I pushed,

the way I felt like a warrior for delivering with no drugs, 

and even silly things like how good the pizza was they delivered to my room.

But most of all I remember how soft your skin felt against my skin,

how I cried when they first took you away,

how sweet and perfect you were,

and how I felt so alive and loved.

I will never forget that day sweet boy.

I will never forget you Elijah. 

I love and miss you so much.

Always.

<3