I didn't leave the bus at all today, which is so weird for me. I am always on the go! We all went a bit crazy at times, but right now it is only me, Jules and Gabe, so that is really not surprising. Levi is off working and training, and Alex is away at Boy Scouts Camp.
The adventures for today were really announcing my big retreat in Sedona this November on my personal Facebook page, and building a small fire in the back yard with Gabriel.
The weather was beautiful today. Lots of gusty winds, and it was actually tolerable outside. I didn't feel like I was going to melt lol.
It is a weird feeling to be in such a good place after 2 weeks of disasters. We still have some stressful things that we need to deal with, but overall, I think I am coming to a solid place and am actually able to use all my talents to live a life I love. It is a good feeling, but it will always come with a tiny questioning voice in the back of my head. What about Elijah? Wasn't this blog about him for so long? Where did that go?
But here is the reality. No matter what I write or do with my life, Elijah is always a part of it. He is in every moment of my life, good and bad. He is in every breath I breathe. He is the kindness and love that inspires me. He is a major part of my life story, and he will alway be in every word I write.
So, even if things are going in a different direction, Elijah will alway be wherever I go.
I have not given up on Elijah S.M.I.L.E.S. I just need to focus on getting my family to a place of financial security so that I can pursue it with ease.
I have faith. Good things are coming. Good things are here now. I am thankful.
You are my sunshine.
You are my sunflower.
You are in everything I do,
and every word I say.
You are the very thing that inspires me to keep going.
You are the reason I believe in kindness so much.
You are my love.
You are my baby boy.
And I will miss you
Always.
<3
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