My numbers for my blog are still dropping so low. I don't know what it happening. And I also don't know why I am obsessing over this... I need to just let it go.
Anyways, today was kind of a rough day...or maybe more a bittersweet day I guess, because there were also lots of good moments too.
It started off with me overhearing some not so nice things about me from someone who I would hope would think better of me...which is never really fun.
I know I know, You can't control what others think of you. And I am learning daily how to not react as much as I use to. I am also trying to not take it personally, but when it is this close to home... it can be difficult.
But sadly, if you want to know how someone really feels about you, it is usually how they speak about you when they think you can't hear them...
If integrity is making the right choices even when no one is watching, then I think honesty is what you have to say about someone when you think or know they can't hear you.
Anyways, back to my day...
So my bank account is still frozen, and I have been pushing for answers daily. And today was no different. So that added a whole lot of stress and took a whole lot of my personal time away today. I think maybe I made some sort of break through, but it was at 4pm when everything was closing, so I won't know until tomorrow...
And I fell today. Like pretty hard, on my arm...the arm that I have nerve pain in. It jarred up kind of bad and hurt. I only scraped it, but I can feel the impact all over. I am pretty sure I will be sore in the morning.
But the kids had a good day, which really can make my day better sometimes. I love that they have the library here. Julien had computer class, and Gabriel geeked out on the tablets, then they both played with other kids who brought out the Lego.
Alex and Levi played Magic together while Jules, Gabe and I ran home to check on the dogs and then we all ate Taco Bell, and then headed to a cub scout meeting for the little one.
Whew! It was a busy evening. I love that we all got to spend the afternoon as a family. Especially on hard days like this one, my husband and children keep me going.
Alright, I am about to post my act of kindness and climb into bed. I leave Friday morning for my retreat, and I have so much to do between now and then. Please continue to send lots of love. Thank you so very much for all your support. I love you all.
Go change the world. Do it for Elijah.
Thank you.
Oh sweet sweet boy.
I can only imagine how full my hands would be with you here.
I bet you would be giving me a hard time lol.
Your brothers surely drive me crazy,
but you all make me so proud and so happy to be your mom.
I am the luckiest mom ever.
The only thing that would make me luckier,
is if you were still here in my arms.
I love and miss you so much Elijah.
Always.
<3
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