I am still pretty awake right now.
I don't know what to blame it on....
It's been a long day.
Today our neighbor's dogs got out of their pin and decided to charge me. I thought I might die. I'm not exaggerating. They were very big and strong dogs. If it had not been for Levi, I might have been mauled. It took Levi, Alex, and my dad to help me get the dogs away from me and our dogs and Levi to really get them out of the yard and us all to safety. Unfortunately that meant that Levi also got attacked the most.
The sheriff was called and the dogs were taken. Levi and I went to the hospital and got tetanus shots and medicine to take at home...
But nothing will ever take that memory away.
I'm still shaking...and I love dogs. I have rescued dogs all my life. But this was...terrifying.
And it feels so silly to say that.
I feel like it shouldn't be scary to have dogs around, but these dogs made me feel very unsafe.
I just keep thinking, if it had been one of the kids...or if Levi had not been there....then what?
It has messed up this entire day. I have not written one word on my novel. I painted to relieve some anxiety, and managed to also make my daily video of Gabe's adventures, but I am having a hard time.
I don't want to fall behind on my writing. I know me, and if I fall behind, I will most likely quit for a long period of time before coming back. I have been making notes though.
I'll just have to push myself that much harder tomorrow.
At some point tonight I am going to have to go to bed. I really just want a hot bath right now.
Sending you all lots of love.
Go change the world. Do it for Elijah.
Thank you.
Do you miss me?
I sometimes wonder.
You never need to wonder if I miss you.
The answer will always be "yes."
I love you and miss you each and every day.
Always.
<3
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