I managed to write 1,591 words today. Not as much as the days before, but I let my emotions get in the way. I am writing about the death of a child, so as you imagine it is a bit hard for me. And I think it will be hard for readers too, so I will have a disclosure at the beginning. BUT, I do feel like maybe walking someone that situation in a story could open the doors to more people being compassionate to grief.
Please pray or send love as I continue to piece the whole scene together. I know once I get past this little hump, the word flow will be back. I just feel like this entire chapter could fill a whole book if I let it, so I am trying to break it down to the most important points and maybe even into some smaller chapters.
Writing is hard, but writing about trauma when you have experienced trauma is even harder.
For my Lenten Jesus study I was going to share a passage from the book I was reading, but I flipped to this page and noticed this prayer so I decided to share it instead:
"Jesus, give me the courage to begin and the courage to continue."
That is exactly what I need right at this very moment.
Sending you all lots of love. Go change the world. Do it for Elijah.
Thank you.
I watched a Ted Talk last night that talked about writing what you know.
Writing how it felt.
I can remember certain events in the day you passed so vividly,
and some of it I can't remember at all.
It all moved so fast and so slow.
It still seems like a dream...
a nightmare.
I don't know how to translate any of this into a story.
I almost battle with even including it.
Because I never want people to know you by your death.
I want people to know you by your life,
and the love you inspire everyday.
I will change the world for you.
This book will help me.
I love and miss you so much Elijah
Always
<3
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