1261: I Can't Imagine a Life Where I Didn't Try

It is 9:59pm.

I am packing up things in the bus. It is really dusty in here and it needs a good cleaning. I don't know. It kind of gives me hope too. I haven't packed in quite some time, and it feels good to pretend that my life is going somewhere big.

I know there are blessings in the small moments. I know that this bus and my dad have provided us with a place to live these last 2 years, and I am thankful for that.

I am not sure what is going to happen this year, I just hope whatever it is, we move forward.

It's kind of scary when you don't know what is going to happen--but do any of us really ever know what is going to happen?

I guess that is what courage really is...moving forward anyways.

I can't imagine living a life where I didn't try.

Sending you guys lots of love.

Go change the world. Do it for Elijah.

Thank you

I used to think I had it all figured out.

A manager position at Disney,

a nice little home in Florida,

you guys growing up at theme parks and the beach.

Now, I am just all over the place.

I have so much knowledge and talent...

and sometimes it just feels wasted sitting here.

I will find my spot in the sun.

I want to honor you and your brothers. 

I want to make you all happy.

I love and miss you my boogie.

Always.

<3