Tomorrow the kids go back to school.
Today we took them to Sea World, just because they needed some positive attention, and we needed to do something. Keeping busy has become extremely important.
This is what a typical day in my head is right now:
I'm awake. I miss him. Time to post his picture so I can see his face and make sure no one would ever forget how sweet he was. Guilt. Frustration. Relief. I love my children and husband so much. I need to keep going. What can we do today. Gotta keep.moving. why????? Oh that reminds me of him. Maybe he is trying to.speak to me. GOD, I hope so. I miss him so much. Gotta keep busy. Busy. Busy. Busy. So thankful.people are doing kind acts in his memory. There needs to be more. More people need to care. Kelly, calm down. People care. I miss him. He will never get to do this. Im sure heaven is way cooler than earth. I hope so. How much more can we take? Relief. Relief. Relief. Prayers. Not enough prayers. I miss him. I love him. I love my other children. Acceptance. Strength. Beauty. Bonding with him on a new level. He is with me. Goodnight Elijah. Please visit me in my dreams.
I would share more about my day, but my battery is dying and I think im going to take this quiet time to read.
I just started reading, "The Four Agreements" and I read 1/2 of it last night. It is blunt and very straight forward, but I am enjoying it so far.
Oh Elijah
, I hope they have patty cake in heaven. It made you so happy. ♡
I miss you so much ♡♡♡♡
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