Monday, November 30, 2015

Where Are You Christmas?



It is 10:12pm.

I'm really not trying to throw a pitty party...I promise.

But I feel like the little girl in this video.

I feel like a child who has lost Christmas.

Normally by this time I have my entire Christmas tree decorated...

Now I don't know if I will ever have a place to put the tree up...

Sorry. I'm sorry...I'm really not trying to be so damn pessimistic.

We will get out of this mess. And we will do It by Christmas....I will make sure of it.

But today...I have to ask...

Where are you Christmas? Why can't I find you?


Elijah, if I could have any Christmas present, I would ask to be able to give you your first Christmas here on Earth with your family.

We miss you so much.

I love you my boogie.







2 comments:

  1. You're going through a rough time. It's okay to vent, or throw a "pity party" sometimes. I hope you and your family have a wonderful Christmas despite what you've been through. It will get better. It will be okay.
    -Samira

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  2. Kelly, I've been following your posts for a bit now and I can say that never once did it cross my mind that you are acting pitifully. ..i do imagine that many, like me, hold a special place in their hearts for you and your family during this difficult time. Keep writing your beautiful blogs momma.

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