Today I accomplished a big fat load of nothing.
I tried to look at apartments...
I tried to take the kids downtown...
But anxiety really killed both of those things for me.
In the end, the most productive thing I did was to practice the 3 guitar chords I have learned for a very special song.
My fingers are hurting badly, and I still have a long way to go...but I hope I can convince myself to learn the whole song so I can sing it to Elijah and to my other boys.
I love that Julien is collecting coins to try and take our family to Hawaii.
It's not that I think we are going to take a trip anytime soon, but it gives us a little hope, and something to look forward to...
Plus he is just so adorable.
Tomorrow I am going to pray that my computer will connect to the internet because I really need to catch up with Love, Elijah blogs.
I also hope my anxiety will settle a bit...
But for now...I think I could use some sleep...I am rambling.
Sweet Elijah,
Did you hear me sing to you?
I know I must sound silly,
and I have a long way to go...
But I would love to be able to
Play this song for you.
I love and miss you so much.
You will always be my boogie <3
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