hope for today

It is 9:57pm.

I am listening to Levi put coins back into Julien's Hawaii fund...

The total so far is $26.50....lol. He has a way to go, but we will get there one day.

Him and Gabriel talk about going to "Who-waggy" all day.

I think it is great that they have something to work for-- to give them hope.

I found a little bit of hope too. My hope started last night as someone who wishes to stay anonymous noticed that I had been having computer problems and decided to purchase a new laptop for me... I will get it in the mail later this week. This will help a lot with Love, Elijah. I am so thankful.

This morning I got news that my work was offering me an extention on my temporary assignment... So I won't be going back to Lifeguarding, at least until March.

Also today, I prayed for the first time in a while...well it was following along with a prayer of the radio...but I suppose it was nicer than the screaming I have done at God lately...anyways it was kind of a spark of hope.

When I got home, I was cooking chili when I got an invite from a friend in Italy to join a video call with Dear Mama Sal. It was really great and I got to talk about Elijah, our acts of kindness we do in his name and I also got to talk about The Love, Elijah Project. The only thing that stinks is right in the middle of our conversation, my phone died....but I sent her an email and I hope to join another call.

Anyways, when i was on the call, I also got a message from the woman who I donated my wedding dress to. She was getting some ribbon and little roses to add to the Angel gowns, when she found a spool of sunflower ribbon. She said it was like Elijah was telling her not to forget about his sunflowers! So now every gown she makes with my dress, she is going to include a sunflower for Elijah <3

After all this my friend reminded me that The Charlie Brown New Years Eve special was on, and while I watched it a complete stranger messaged me just to tell me she had found my story and wanted to make sure I was okay.

Just wanted to share that today was a good day...I had some amazing things happen...but of course I still miss my Elijah. <3

Oh sweet boy...

Even the best days I have had since you left me make me miss you.

I am so thankful for all the bits of wonderful that happened today.

But I still would just rather be holding you.

I love you my boogie.

I miss you.