Please Pray for Some Relief.

It is 10:01pm

Tonight I am a little more speechless than usual.

I think earlier today I had a million things to say...most of them in anger...

Someone egged our car today.

Not the one that is with us, but one we left behind in Florida with friends.

I'm not going to go into a huge tangent here...but before you decided to hurt other people's property...just stop and think about how much that person might already be hurting, and how much your selfish act can add to that.

I did not need this...

nor does anyone for that matter.

I just pray that the egging is where it stops.

Most of Elijah's things are in that car, and I pray that no one else does the unimaginable and steals something.

I have been told the car has been moved...and I know it is in good hands...but I am just asking for prayers because I could not handle anything happening to Elijah's things.

All the more reason my family needs to find a home. I am tired of storing things in storage units and in cars.

I am just tired of so many things...

Just please pray for some sort of turn around...

I know God is up there, and I know Elijah is safe in heaven...but I have had a terrible time trying to pray lately, and I need it more than ever.

I just want a slight amount of relief...is that too much to ask?

Oh Elijah,

What I would give to go back to this very moment. 

To hold you on my chest again and feel your sweet skin against mine. 

Do you remember this night?

Julien, you and I cuddled and watched Jurassic Park 2.

I was hoping one day we would play with dinosaurs and spoil you like your other brothers.

I was hoping to stay in the magic of that moment we shared forever.

Now, I don't even know how to make it through most days and it just seems that everything is snowballing out of control.

If you have any say so up there, please ask God to help us. 

I miss you so much.

I love you. 

<3