Wednesday, December 23, 2015

Today I am okay...we will see what tomorrow brings

It is 9:24pm

I spent the majority of my day doing Christmas shopping for Levi's grandmother and then wrapping all of these presents plus wrapping the little presents we had got the boys yesterday.

She has 7 great grand kids (including Elijah). All under the age of 13.

Man it was an adventure.

I also did this with both Julien and Gabriel with me, so I am really exhausted.

Today I am feeling okay.

I think it was the shopping that helped. There really wasn't much for each kid, but I hope it was stuff they liked...it felt good to feel like I was able to give them something..even though it was all really from granny.

I bought Elijah a card, but I haven't filled it out yet.

I am actually kind of peaceful at the moment...

But that doesn't mean tomorrow I won't be.

I brought a pen back here so I could start writing my love, Elijah book...or at least start brainstorming.

Not much tonight though because I am so tired.

But if i don't start now I might never do it.

Time is pretty important to me now, I hate to think that I have wasted any of it.

I guess I will start now...



Oh sweet Elijah.

I am trying to live my life in a way that honors you and makes you proud.

Don't forget kid, I promised you we are going to change the world together...

Don't think I will ever forget that.

I miss and love you so much my boogie.
<3



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