Anger

It is 8:58pm

Today started off pretty lazy and full of tears.

I woke up exhausted and it just led to emotions.

I think I sulked around until noon and then I got myself dressed, got Gabriel dressed and went and got some coffee and some food from the grocery store.

After I came back I was just productive enough to write the lake county news channel and newspapers to ask if they would include the information about the information session for Love, Elijah that I have scheduled.

I also emailed The Eye of Orlando again asking about lighting up pink and blue for October 15th...again...since they haven't responded to my last email...

And then for the rest of the day I have just been angry.

Yes, anger has hit me bad today.

Just feeling like people don't care.

There are just so many parents hurting out there, and I am trying so hard, and I just feel like it falls on deaf ears.

I also find myself mad at people I know for things they have said--things they haven't said...

Just angry.

But...what can I do?
...I've done all I can.

I'm just frustrated...

I don't know what else to say.

I'm just not in a great mood right now.

Elijah you mean the world to me, 

and one day the world will know just how much you mean.

I am taking things one day at a time,

and realize that I can't do it over night...

but no matter what I won't give up.

You are way too important to me.

I love you and will make you so proud.

I miss you my boogie. 

<3