It is 9:39pm.
I did pretty okay with not complaining today. I mean there were a few slips...but overall I made it through the day okay.
I took the kids to a near by state park and we went for a hike.
I thought the hike circled around the lake and came back to where we started, however after walking about 1 1/2 hours one way, I found out we had to turn around and walk back the way we came.
No problem for me, but a huge problem for my 4 and 6 year old.
I ended up having to play cheerleader mom and keep my patience .
I also had to carry Gabriel about every 5 minutes and promise ice-cream if they would just finish the trail...lol.
But I had my charity miles app running for most of the time and we turned our extra miles into money donated to Every Mother Counts in memory of Elijah. So, if you look it from that perspective, the extra hike was worth it.
Anyways, I find the hardest time to stop myself from complaining is early in the morning, or when the kids are acting up, or when people are rude or inconsiderate.
But I have gotten a little bit better about stopping myself, and taking a deep breath and moving on...so it is a start.
All in all it was a pretty good day...but I still just miss my Elijah.
Oh sweet boy. I think about you all the time. All the time. Every moment I am awake is a moment I miss you. Every moment I sleep is a moment I hope I dream of you. But all of these moments are moments I move closer to where you are.
I love and miss you so much my boogie.
<3
Welcome to my blog. It's a bit of a mess. I'm a bit of a mess. It used to be about just kindness. Now it is about finding strength in the darkest places. Discovering love through grief. Traveling this beautiful world. And continuing to practice kindness all because of a little boy I love and miss very much. I hope you find inspiration in all my ramblings. #loveelijah
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