No Complaints: Day 24

It is 9:40pm.

If I could control myself from having road rage---or perhaps stop people from taking photos of attractions from the middle of the interstate--then maybe I could say that I did really good at not complaining today...

This morning Julien got sent home from school for having "pink eye."

The more the day progresses, the more I think it was just really bad allergies, because it has already cleared up and pink eye is supposed to last for days...

But just to be sure, we kept him out of mma classes tonight, and he is been pretty restful today--for Julien.

I have felt much better today, just really really hungry.

From what I gather, this sudden urge to want to eat and entire grocery store is from the acupuncture yesterday.

But the rest of me feels awesome.

So much weight lifted.

Now, don't let this fool you into thinking my grief for Elijah has miraculously been "cured." That is not a thing. No cure for grief. I will miss him till the moment we are united again.

But can I please tell you about something weird that happened today?

I don't know if it is a sign...or if it was a phone call from heaven...or just some weird phone fluke.

It could be anything.

But 3 times tonight I got a phone call from a private number.

I answered the first phone call and I could hear people in the background and I said "hello..." "hello..." and then I heard the voice of a tiny child and it said "hello." And then it hung up.

I missed the second call because I was getting gas, but I answered the next phone call and it was the exact same thing.

Now, Elijah would have been 9 months old tomorrow, and on Earth it would have been a miracle for him to say "hello" at that age....

But heaven only knows what type of miracles can happen in heaven.

Who knows....

Maybe it was Elijah...maybe I am just crazy.

I just have been finding so many signs lately, and I know he is trying to tell me something...even if it is just him telling me "hello," I can still feel our bond like crazy lately.

Gosh, I love that kid.

I just miss him so much.

Anyways, I have to go to work kind of early in the morning, and I'm getting sleepy.

Thanks for listening to my crazy ramblings.

Pray for Julien that he feels better. Pray for me, that I find the message in the madness. Pray for my family. And always pray for my Elijah.

(Quick note. I haven't really followed the Joey Feek story very closely, but I heard that she passed away today and is now in heaven. My heart and prayers go out to her family and all her fans.

Joey,
I find your strength and love so admirable and I am so proud of you for being strong to the  very end of your life here on Earth. You were truly courageous and I am so glad you have found peace. Tell my Elijah I said hi!")

Oh sweet boy.

I miss you like crazy,

so much so that sometimes I think it makes me a little crazy...lol.

Thank you for the signs you send.

Thank you for being my ray of light.

Gosh I miss you so much.

I love you my boogie. 

<3