It is 11:15am.
I don't usually blog this early but I needed to vent...
And please don't take offensive to this if you have a baby right now....because honestly I love children and love babies, but I cannot explain how losing your child affects the way you handle social situations....especially when their are infants involved.
Right now I am surrounded by babies...and moms talking about their babies. Everyone's baby is turning 3 months old it seemed and Elijah passed away at 3 months old. It literally makes me breathless to hear about babies turning 3 months old.
I am sitting in the corner right now with tears in my eyes trying not to have a breakdown while these giggly moms with their sweet babies are so so happy.
I just want to be happy. I just want to be holding my sweet baby and giggling with other moms about how cute he is...
This is so hard and I needed to get it off my chest.
Shake it off Kelly. Shake it off.
Woooosaaaahhhhh....
Blah...send your thoughts and prayers.
My anxiety is off the charts and my heart is breaking more and more every second.
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