i should have known changing the world was not easy

It is 10:06pm.

I bought a printer today and I hate myself for it.

I haven't opened it...but p.s. why are printers so expensive?

I seem to remember being able to buy one a few years ago for like $20 and when the ink ran out you just chunked it and bought a new one because it was cheaper than replacing ink...

Anyways, I bought it and it is sitting there, still in the box, waiting for me to print out the letters I have typed up and ready to go to local businesses asking for money.

And this better work, because quite frankly I counted my chickens too soon and our fundraiser is not going the way I thought it would. I am a little worried....

But I think at the end of the month we have 2 things that could potentially save us for a little while....so i am not jumping ship yet...but the worrying is still there. I just want everything to come together smoothly.

I really just need the electricity on and art supplies and maybe a couple of tables and I guess we can just grow from there...

Just keep praying...pray for blessings, and pray for direction, and always Pray for my Elijah.

I caught up on Etsy orders, but then one more came in today so I will get it done in the morning...

Maybe some more will come in too.

But that has pretty much been my day....

I have all my heart bracelets now premade, and my blue angels premade ( even though there aren't many left), and now I need to premade pink and gold angels and add my dragon flies too...

But I can honestly say I love running my little etsy shop and sending Elijah's name out all over the place on things I designed or made myself. <3

But now I need rest. Tomorrow I will be using my new printer and praying that with every envelope I seal, it was worth buying the damn thing....

Elijah, I guess I should know that changing the world would not be easy...but I just thought that my love for you would somehow just open doors. If only people knew how strong my love for you really was, then I believe no door would ever close for us. We will change to world my boogie. I promise.

❤