477: STUFF!

It is 5:13pm.

Judge away judgers, but this mom has had a horrible day and it is mostly because of her horrible kids.

I don't know if it is my anxiety or if it is because they are friggen spoiled, but today my kids have pushed me to my limits.

This has nothing to do with them being homeschooled and needing more structure, before your mind begins to go there. When Alex and Julien where in school, they were learning even nastier behavior from other kids and I had many issues that I don't have now with them at home...

Today the problem really is really stuff.

Yes stuff.

And I know am probably one of the main contributors to their problems. (sadly)

So today I have put my foot down.

NO MORE STUFF.

No more treats at the grocery store.

Treats will be given only on special days or when they are earned.

No more toys until Christmas or Birthdays.

And then, I think when those holidays come around we are going to stick with the 4 gift rule:
1. something you want
2. something you need
3. something you wear
4. something you read.

And then anyone else who wants to give them a present can contribute to their Hawaii fund, or whatever vacation they want to save up for next.

My Foot is down. 

And I know some of you might think I am crazy, but sometimes I really miss living in a hotel or our studio, because at least then it didn't feel like we needed all this stuff!

1/2 of my daily stress from moving into this house is that we don't have this, or we need that, or this room doesn't have curtains or a lamp, and that room needs a trashcan...etc. etc.

And let us not mention all the bickering that has happened over "my room," or "my toy" from the boys since we have moved in here either.

ALL OF IT IS JUST STUFF AND IT DRIVES ME CRAZY!!!!

Okay, sorry. I just had to vent...and of course I am extremely grateful for having a place to live and this is all just an adjustment issue. It really has nothing to do with the house.

But now I should probably get to work on my New Year's Family Meeting I am planning (I know everyone is going to be thrilled lol).

Please say a little prayer that I can find the right solution to this "stuff" problem, along all the other behavioral issues we have been having lately.

And pray for our world. Pray for my family. Pray for me. And always always pray for my sweet Elijah.

Oh sweet sweet boy.

I had the BEST dream last night.

I dreamed that you were sitting in my lap 

and you were talking to me.

There were small words, 

but I could understand them.

Of course, I can't remember them now, but I do remember 

how proud I was of you for starting to talk.

Are you talking in Heaven?

Am I really missing another milestone?

Thank you so much for visiting me.

I miss you so much.

I love you.

Always.

<3