Today was another day I stayed busy all day. It helps a lot, but I also had to go to my dad's today to do laundry and walking through that door without my little dog jumping into my arms was really hard. I didn't stay long because if I didn't keep moving I would have fallen apart.
Even though I was busy today, I feel like I didn't make the best of my time. I felt like I "neglected" the kids today, but somehow I managed to play Scrabble Jr. with Jules and Gabriel in the middle of all my craziness.
After I finish this blog my next project is to create a schedule to help me better juggle my time without taking as much time away from them.
But I did get a lot done today, and I am proud of myself for that.
I got to see my best friend today, which is always great. Even though I have moved home, we are still a pretty long driving distance apart so we don't get to see each other that often.
I also got to deliver some little soaps and shampoos to the Women's Resource Center as my act of kindness in memory of Elijah today, and they told me they were so grateful for our diaper drive we held in December. It was good to see his love at work. Those kind of moments make me so thankful. I always wish I could do more, and I will soon.
The Love, Elijah Facebook page looks a little different now. I made a new "cover photo."
And I also changed the profile picture to our sunflower "logo."
I am trying to look into other kindness projects and get ideas as to how to best go about the new direction I want to take. One thing we will offer is "comfort packages of kindness" to grieving parents.
This will be a slow process because it means we will have to have items to donate. But we will get there in time. We will do our big "Patty Cake for Elijah" fundraiser in April to help with that, and I will have a donation site with a list of items you can bring by or send funds for.
But I want to make it clear that we are not abandoning the idea of helping other parents through child loss.
I will still post my daily blogs, and I will still be here for all of you, and I am still going to compile my 365 days of letters book. We are just going to focus more energy and effort towards changing the world through kindness, because that is what I do best and that is what I promised Elijah I would do!
Anyways, I need to devote some time to making a "schedule" and then get back to work with on all of my other projects.
I hope you are all having a great evening. Sending you all love and hugs.
Please keep praying for our world. Pray for my family. Pray for me. And always always pray for my sweet Elijah.
Thank you
I don't know that I have ever shared this picture before.
I don't know how I have missed it, but there is your hand resting against my body..
This is the first picture your dad captured.
We are back at the beginning.
I miss and love you so much.
Always.
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