564: Clean

It is 9:52pm.

Today has been a lazy day, but a good day. We got to spend the day with Levi just hanging out.

I think I have become addictive to cleaning lol, because for today's act of kindness in memory of Elijah, I cleaned our friend's apartment. I guess it was my "thank you" for letting Levi stay here. He is away on vacation so hopefully it will be a nice surprise when he comes back.

Other than that the most productive thing I did was make a post to Instagram/Facebook about this weekend's Patty Cake for Elijah:

"This Saturday we will be playing #pattycakeforelijah and we are hoping you will join us as we talk about pregnancy loss, infant loss, and infertility. At 9 am April 1st, my son Alex and I will be playing patty cake for 98 minutes straight to honor the 98 days my sweet Elijah lived. We will be streaming this live on Facebook at Facebook.com/loveelijah0605 and we want to encourage all other angel moms and dads to join us and share their stories in the comment section of the video. This will be a chance for all of us to come together and make a difference for our babies! Also, we will be raising funds for Camp Cullin in hopes that we can sponsor at least one child to attend this retreat from grief. Camp Cullin is a 501c3 that supports children who have lost a sibling. My family was fortunate enough to attend last year and we really hope that we can pay the love forward and help another family go and begin to heal. If you would like to get a head start on your donations, or learn more about Camp Cullin, you can visit: https://www.gofundme.com/campcullin16"

It only costs $100 to sponsor a child at Camp Cullin, and I am really hoping we can exceed our goals. 

I am also hoping by going "live" and inviting other angel parents to participate and share their stories we will be able to really spread awareness about pregnancy loss, infant loss, and infertility. 

I am always wishing I can do more, but I think this is the best I can do with where I am this year.

Well, I have to get up super early tomorrow to drive back "home" and clean some more houses.

Good night everyone. I love you all.

Please keep praying for our world. Pray for our country. Pray for my family. Pray for me. Pray for you! And always always pray for my sweet Elijah.

Thank you.

Hi sweet boy.

I love and miss you so much.

I bet you and Gabriel would have been so silly together.

I think of how he should be playing with you when he complains about his big brothers leaving him out.

But I know that he always thinks of you and loves you very much.

We all do.

<3