Today has been one of "those days"--whatever that means. The days where it takes you until to 6:42pm to actually decide you need to do something with this day to change your life, change the world, or at least change the trash bag. (Just kidding on that last one. Taking out the trash is Alex's job, lol. I just thought it sounded good.)
The kids have gone bonkers. I have too. Honestly it is a big melting pot of lots of things that need work. So tonight, the kids have an early bed time. They haven't argued with me yet over this, but I'm sure there is a war coming soon.
I need to go to bed semi early too. I want to start waking up at 5am again. I have to stop just saying it and actually do it though.
So for my "productiveness" this evening, I am going to go pick up all the clothes I just folded, make the bed, sweep the floor, and get kids to bed so I can spend some quiet "me time" getting shit together. Affirmations, prayer, and writing out a schedule--maybe even sell a book. I am worth it.
And then I will go to bed by 10pm, because it is important, and because I deserve to treat myself better.
Self love is important guys--even on the "bad" days.
Sending you all lots of love. Keep changing the world. Do it for Elijah.
Thank you.
Oh sweet boy.
Today I did a brave thing.
Today I asked for donations to a SIDS research foundation
for a birthday gift for myself.
I don't want people to associate your death with your remembrance,
because you are so much more than that to me.
Your short life has made a tremendous impact on this family
and we are so incredibly thankful that you are a part of us.
But, I felt like it was a good opportunity to break the "stigma" surrounding SIDS.
And hopefully it helps prevent another babies death.
Oh I wish I would have know how to save you.
I love and miss you so much baby boy.
Every day.
Always.
<3
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